My Ebenezer

Posted May 16th 2005

by Ebenezer

I feel like a kid the day before Christmas. I know something great is coming, and I know I’m going to love it, but i’m not sure exactly what it is. This is going to be the best Christmas ever.

I haven’t lost my mind – I know it is only May and December. The Christmas I’m talking about is our adoption. It never ceases to amaze me how God smiles on us and gives us little nudges and little blessings along the way. Besides, this year, Christmas could come in July.

I got a call yesterday from The Adoption Lady – she is an angel that God has sent to guide us through this whole thing – and she wanted to tell me about a “situation”. There’s a little boy who is two years old and currently in foster care. His birth mother is pregnant and due in July. The agency is looking for a home to place both boys in a Legal Risk Adoption. She wanted to make sure that we would be interested before she pushed for this to happen – OF COURSE WE’RE INTERESTED!!!!

Now, let me say for the record that I believe God already has our children picked out and I have NO DOUBT that He will faithfully lead us to each other. So, if this one doesn’t happen, then these kids belong to someone else. What excites me the most is to see God at work – this situation is a reminder to me that He is still in control and He will make this all happen in His time. It also has me thinking that He can and may just make it happen really fast, so we need to be ready!

I also want to say, for the official record, that my heart breaks when I pray for my kids. I believe that at least one of them is most likely already here on earth and I shudder to think of the situation he/she may be in. I pray for God’s protection for him/her and also for the birthparents. It is an amazing thing how God has given me compassion for the birthparents – I can usually be found guilty of being judgemental but not when it comes to this. I don’t know the circumstances that people go through that make them who they are. When I pray for these kids, any of them, I pray that God will work out what is best for the children. These two boys are a perfect example, as much as I would love to claim them as our own – they belong to God and He already has a plan for their lives. I pray for His will and for the best He has for them, not for me. I don’t know and can not judge when a parent may be able to pull it together and be what their kids need them to be – only God can know that. I’ll leave the judging up to Him but I’ll continue to pray.

Christmas is coming….the lights are out, the carolers are singing….there are presents under the tree and stockings hung by the fireplace… Christmas is coming….can you feel it?

Ps 118:29
29 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good!His faithful love endures forever. NLT

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