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Wow. I can’t believe it. I have been waiting so long. Yet, still. I have no news. BWAAAAAHHHHAAAHHAAA
In other news, I got a new cell phone and that is very exciting.
35 weeks
Posted May 13th, 2008 at 4:20 am. 3 comments
sigh.
Happy Mother’s Day
Posted May 11th, 2008 at 11:33 pm. 1 comment
Happy Mother’s Day to all of you are mothers. And happy Mother’s Day to all of you who will one day be mothers. And Happy Mother’s Day to those of you who long to be mothers. I hope your wait is a short one.
What a fabulous day. The weather was great, the food was good and we had both our parents over for lunch. We spent a lot of time outside playing with the kids this afternoon and they had a blast. I’m trying to really enjoy these breezy, beautiful days because I know the scorching heat of summer is just around the corner.
Through all of the fun and beauty in this day, I could not help but think of the child who is not yet mine; who may never be mine. Tomorrow birthmom is 35 weeks along. The day she gave birth to Gracey. I know that in normal cases, the longer baby stays with birthmom, the better, but in this case that just may not be true. I pray for baby. Baby “Mathew” as Carter calls him/her. After reading the story of Abraham and Sarah and how they prayed for a baby for so long, Carter decided that “our baby” was going to be named Mathew. 
Anyway, I pray for “Mathew” several times a day and thoughts of him/her rarely leave my mind and never leave my heart.
You know, I said that I wouldn’t be devestated if we didn’t end up with this child. I no longer believe that is true. I ache to hold a tiny baby against my chest and smell the softness of its head, the sweetness of its breath. I long to feel that heart beat against mine. I want to bring Carter and Gracey’s baby brother or sister home. I’m standing in faith and believing it will happen and at the same time asking God to forgive my unbelief. This has always been a difficult place for me to be, spiritually. God calls us to stand in faith and to believe Him. It’s not the believing part I have trouble with – it’s the knowing whether or not I’ve heard Him clearly or just imagined what I wanted to hear.
Your will, Lord. Nothing less. Nothing more. Nothing else.
Mother’s Day
Posted May 7th, 2008 at 7:03 pm. 2 comments
Carter’s school had a Mother’s Day program today.
Boring Update
Posted May 2nd, 2008 at 4:40 am. 4 comments
It’s just that I really have nothing much to say. I don’t want to bore you with the details of life, but I hate not updating, either. Why? Because I’m just psycho like that.
Soooooo. We’re getting a new AC. Woo hoo. What a thrilling way to spend your hard earned money. On a flippin’ air conditioner. I asked the guy if he had one in pink. He and daddy both said no at the same time. It was rather funny.
So, here’s what the kids ar up to these days:
Carter:
makes his bed almost daily
fixes his own cup of water
walks through the parking lot without holding my hand
gets me diet cokes from the fridge!
talks to me about his day (when he feels like it)
likes to pretend he is Batman or spiderman and will give those answers when a stranger asks his name
loves to be naked
constantly explains to me who is allowed to touch his privates and who is not (guess maybe we’ve drilled that a little toooo much)
Gracey:
Sits in a big girl chair at home and at restaurants
drinks from a regular cup at the table
hits mommy and Carter with toys just because she thinks she can
goes to time out on command and stays there until she is told to get up
yells “ta ta’s” when we walk through the bra section at the store
counts to 10 normally and goes up to twenty skipping a few
sings the ABC song
sings Jesus Loves Me
sings Happy Birthday at random and then claps when it is over