My Ebenezer

Posted Jun 18th 2009

by Ebenezer

My sweet little Mathew,

There aren’t words to express how much joy you bring me each and every day. You are definitely a happy-go-lucky baby and love to laugh and play constantly. You are walking off and on but still use crawling as your main mode of transportation; when you walk you expect applause. It cracks me up when you turn to look at me just as you are about to do something you know you shouldn’t. And really, when you have something halfway in your mouth and see me coming to get it and quickly stuff it all in your mouth it makes me laugh but isn’t really funny.

You are spoiled rotten and probably will be the rest of your life. Typical baby of the family. My favorite thing with you now is how you will walk/crawl over to me and just put your head down on whatever part of my body is most accessible. Just to give me some “lovin’”, you’ll stop over while you are playing every now again and it makes my day. You have captured my heart in a way I didn’t know was possible.

I still like it when you sometimes cry if I leave the room but only with me (most of the time) – I know that is just wrong but I can’t help it. You love your mommy and I love that it is so obvious! You also adore Carter and Gracey and just cannot get enough of them – you chase after them and fuss if they get away too quickly and lock you out of their rooms. I do catch them being incredibly sweet to you and playing gently to keep you entertained. My heart melts to see them interacting with you and to hear your giggles as they do.

I knew about you shortly after your conception and I have loved you from the very beginning. I spent 9 months praying for your safety and homecoming while trying to imagine what it would be like to have a third child. Trying to imagine what you would look like and how long it would take to bring you home.

I felt certain you would be ours from that first phone call though my confidence waivered over the next nine months. I know God must have been shaking his head because He was making it as clear as He could that you would be coming home to us. He even gave you the same due date as mommy and daddy’s birthday.

The night you were born my heart stopped until I held you in my arms. Those 6 days were the longest of my life and the scariest. My heart shattered when your birthparents took you home and I stalked the caseworkers to find the investigator so I could know what was happening. Through a series of unmistakable miracles, God intervened and brought us together on June 19, 2008, just six days after your birth. Your were safe and I was overwhelmed with gratefulness.

I enjoy you every day and I can’t imagine a world without you in it. As I wrote in your adoption announcement:

I knew I love you before I met you
and cuddled you on my chest.
Before God brought you home to me,
I knew that we’d be blessed.

I knew I loved you before I met you,
I knew it from the start.
Before I held you close in my arms,
I held you in my heart.

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