Quotable Quotes….
Posted: July 29, 2006 at 8:23 pm
I’m going back through all os my posts, reading what my thoughts and feelings were way back when this all started. I’m even categorizing posts so feel free to click on some of the links at the side and see what comes up. My whole reason for capturing my thoughts here is so that I can keep track of what God has done for me, in me and through me. It is My Ebenezer.
These are quotes from posts I made in May of 2005, the first month I begin writing.
I can’t wait to drive my kids around in our mini-van! I can’t wait to have a car messy from spilled cherios and juice and …. I just can’t wait!Â
I can’t wait for the day that I am so tired and can not take a nap because I have a little one to take care of.Â
I know something great is coming, and I know I’m going to love it, but i’m not sure exactly what it is.
There’s a little boy who is two years old and currently in foster care. His birth mother is pregnant and due in July. The agency is looking for a home to place both boys in a Legal Risk Adoption.
Now, let me say for the record that I believe God already has our children picked out and I have NO DOUBT that He will faithfully lead us to each other.
I also want to say, for the official record, that my heart breaks when I pray for my kids. I believe that at least one of them is most likely already here on earth and I shudder to think of the situation he/she may be in. I pray for God’s protection for him/her and also for the birthparents. It is an amazing thing how God has given me compassion for the birthparents – I can usually be found guilty of being judgemental but not when it comes to this. I don’t know the circumstances that people go through that make them who they are.
I look in the rearview mirror at the empty seats behind me and I smile. Six months ago, those empty seats would have been a reminder of an empty womb and a bottomless hole in my heart; time and perspective can change everything. Now I look at those empty seats and I see hope – I see a future – I see God’s Grace.Â
Imagine being taken away from everything that is familiar to you – the birthday party that was scheduled for next Saturday, your best friend next door, even your mom and dad. It’s all gone in a heartbeat. Regardless of the condition you live in, you are terrified when you’re taken away. I wonder what that is like for a 1 year old….a 2 year old? Pray for our kids, wherever they are tonight. Pray that God will protect them and give them a sense of peace in whatever situation they are in. Pray that someone is hugging them and showering them with kisses.Â
Pray that God paves the way for us to find each other. Pray that God prepares us to be as much of a gift to them as we know they will be to us.
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We are The Body
Posted: August 31, 2005 at 11:02 pm
Tonight, our church provided a free dinner to all the area evacuees of hurricaine Katrina. I helped pass out flyers to area hotels and got to talk with a lot of hurting people. I got to be the hands and feet of Christ for them. I’m too tired to make it sound pretty or moving – the experience was too raw for that anyway. People are hurting and they need the Body of Christ to lift them up. People I won’t easily forget:
The first lady I got to speak with won’t leave my mind’s eye. She was an elderly woman of about 75 or so and although she had a sweet disposition, her heart was clearly broken. Through her tears she talked of her kids and grandkids who fled with her and were safe. With tears spilling down her face she said, “but our husbands. Our husbands stayed behind. We don’t know. We just don’t know.”
A couple we met in the parking lot of Wal-Mart with their small child. Packing up their vehicle with plans to head back to Slidell, La. “My mom and step dad are stuck there. They live in a three story house so we believe they are okay, but we have to get to them. No one else will. We have to. My step dad is a diabetic. We’re going to rescue them.” As the man loaded his car with supplies and rubber boots, he said their next stop was Academy and he was going to buy a boat.
A woman who sat alone, crying on a bench in front of her hotel. I sat down beside her and just put my arm around her. “i’m sorry,” i said. “so sorry.” “I’ve lost it all. Everything is gone. I don’t even have my checkbook. I can’t even get to my money in the bank – it was a local bank in New Orleans. I have nothing.” I asked what she would do until she could go back ….”I’m not going back. I have nothing to go back to. I think i’m going to Tennessee…i have some family there. My home is gone.”
Then there are the beautiful people who showed up tonight for a free meal and a praise and worship service. We fed them. We hugged them. We prayed with them. We loved them. They told us they would be okay. They told us that God is good.
Gaynelle was there with her 5 year old nephew. Through tears she said, “i’m not hungry. I just came for the worship. I need to worship.” She explained that Tobius was her nephew and that her mother and sister stayed behind. They couldn’t get out – I don’t think they had any means to get out. So she took Tobius and they fled and now they don’t know about Tobius’s mom or her mom. They can’t get through and they just don’t know.
There were some their who had their entire families with them. Some had left family behind. All left someone behind. The common answer was “we just don’t know.”
The worship service was amazing. More “Amens” and “hallelluhah’s” (i don’t know how to spell halleluyah) than i’ve ever heard in a single service. These people were praising God with tears streaming down their faces.
I have yet to tell you of another group of people who touched my heart in a very special way this evening. Our church family and other church families poured out their hearts, their wallets and their time to make this meal happen. We fed about 250-300 people and there were at least that many volunteers there helping. We had a ton of food left over. Everyone wanted to do something.
These are some of the faces of Katrina:
Here Comes Santa Claus
Tags: Adoption, Foster Care, Foster Care; Adoption
Posted: May 16, 2005 at 9:57 pm
I feel like a kid the day before Christmas. I know something great is coming, and I know I’m going to love it, but i’m not sure exactly what it is. This is going to be the best Christmas ever.
I haven’t lost my mind – I know it is only May and December. The Christmas I’m talking about is our adoption. It never ceases to amaze me how God smiles on us and gives us little nudges and little blessings along the way. Besides, this year, Christmas could come in July.
I got a call yesterday from The Adoption Lady – she is an angel that God has sent to guide us through this whole thing – and she wanted to tell me about a “situation”. There’s a little boy who is two years old and currently in foster care. His birth mother is pregnant and due in July. The agency is looking for a home to place both boys in a Legal Risk Adoption. She wanted to make sure that we would be interested before she pushed for this to happen – OF COURSE WE’RE INTERESTED!!!! 
Now, let me say for the record that I believe God already has our children picked out and I have NO DOUBT that He will faithfully lead us to each other. So, if this one doesn’t happen, then these kids belong to someone else. What excites me the most is to see God at work – this situation is a reminder to me that He is still in control and He will make this all happen in His time. It also has me thinking that He can and may just make it happen really fast, so we need to be ready!
I also want to say, for the official record, that my heart breaks when I pray for my kids. I believe that at least one of them is most likely already here on earth and I shudder to think of the situation he/she may be in. I pray for God’s protection for him/her and also for the birthparents. It is an amazing thing how God has given me compassion for the birthparents – I can usually be found guilty of being judgemental but not when it comes to this. I don’t know the circumstances that people go through that make them who they are. When I pray for these kids, any of them, I pray that God will work out what is best for the children. These two boys are a perfect example, as much as I would love to claim them as our own – they belong to God and He already has a plan for their lives. I pray for His will and for the best He has for them, not for me. I don’t know and can not judge when a parent may be able to pull it together and be what their kids need them to be – only God can know that. I’ll leave the judging up to Him but I’ll continue to pray.
Christmas is coming….the lights are out, the carolers are singing….there are presents under the tree and stockings hung by the fireplace… Christmas is coming….can you feel it?
Ps 118:29
29 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good!His faithful love endures forever. NLT